Last day today
Well today is my last day of drinking. I've switched from spirits to beer and reduced as sensibly as possible but somehow I feel terrified.
I'm staying with family right now who are helping me with my reduction and giving it to me at certain times but irrationally accused them this morning of trying to keep me prisoner and control my life when they suggested I didn't go to the shop alone today. I begged them for help for goodness sake!
I'm having the panic that goes along with trying to start all over again (even though I desperately want to be free of alcohol). Just had a mad frantic search for any alcohol I may have hidden because I know it's the last day today. Collapsed in tears when I didn't find any. Anyone ever think they're going insane? That's what alcohol does to you isn't it? I should know this by now!!