Grizz: I've said the same EXACT word's as you have - many time's!
That part, (where your 54 and have been married 28 year's of it). Yep,
those word's are the one's that made me feel, yucky, lost, and wondering
what my purpose in life was.
It feel's like "identity theft".
"Im not a wife, Im not a lover, Im not a full-time mom,
I dont have a "family", and RatsAss, what am I gonna do for the holiday's
...Im never going to have anniversary again...
OMG - This list goes on.... My mind had MAJOR - MIND CHATTER!!!!
Some may say I sat on the "pity potty"
I believe it's more of sitting on the "grieving potty" - It's a hole new way of learning
life, at this age. Bouncing and dropping at this age, is something that I never dreamed
of at this age....
And one of the worst thing's I did, was compare my divorce to a friends divorce.
A divorce that hold's a bag of "Addiction" is not the same as the divorce of a couple that has just fallen out of love (etc excuse) with each other.
The word "CUNNING & BAFFLING" is not a common word in (normal divorces)
So= I get ya dude! - I really do! - But hang in there, the pot doesn't boil forever!
I alway's try to look at it this way ...."God, gave me another chance in life - *****"
I might not like it somedays, but somedays, I actually love the living frog-doo out of it!