Hey Ken, this feeling will pass my friend. I had a spell a few weeks ago of feeling angry, and that is a total novelty for me as I don't think I'd ever felt angry in my life before! Total childish tantrum screaming type angry too! Thinking of how many years wasted, lives ruined, hurt caused.
Move through it. Use that energy into making life better from now on. And celebrate last night that you said NO!
Loads of love xx