Thank you, again, awuh1. When you say that I need to address it openly and honestly, do you mean I have to fess up to him and tell him just how much I have been drinking? If so, that's so scary for me because I am sooooo ashamed of my actions. I probably couldn't even get through that conversation without blubbering like a fool! Even when I was seeing a counselor, she had enough....I guess you'd call it "respect" for me to not even go there and ask how much I drank. It was sort of a non-issue. Kind of like, why focus on the past when you are trying to work on the future. Does that even make sense?