You sound worn down with life Change. Are you?
It also seems that you do all the activities you mention, but have little joy or happiness in them. I don't expect anyone to have joy at taking the trash out, but do you enjoy having lunch with friends or reading to your kids?
You sound like your being very hard on yourself. Like you have very high standards that you push yourself to meet.
I do this to myself too. I'm not good at relaxing either. I seemed to only relax with booze. And with children it's even harder.
Do you think think you might be down in the dumps?
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