welcome bbfmkay
I think if we want changes in our lives, we really need to make changes.
Supports really important too.
You'll find a lot of that here, but are you open to the idea of recovery groups too?
If you are, there's many different approaches and methods of recovery around - here's some links to some of the main players:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html
I think it's a good idea to click all the links to get an idea of what kinds of support is available.
I also recommend you visit the
Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach.
good to have you with us
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