For me the beauty of the big plan was that even though I was scared I knew that all those nagging doubts were the beast. I didn't need to be 100% sure. I suppose my need to not drink was pretty strong... I had a definite it's now or never feeling... but it was very flat, not revelatory at all. I had all the doubts and that, they just die down as time goes on.
Glad you're still here trying Dalia
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