Hey - thanks everyone. On the positive side, eight months feels great. I'm really proud of myself, and really happy to be where I am in sobriety.
I'm going this Fri, no matter what. I'm telling myself that I can make an excuse and leave if I need to, just show up for 1/2 an hour or something. I'm sure I've blown it up way worse than it really will be.
I hate feeling insecure. I'm trying to work through it though. I see my sponsor tonight and will talk to her about it.