It was after my husband's second hospital stay this year that I realized what an insane person I would have been if I had been right there at his side. I would have been anxious with worry, angry that the alcohol was playing a part in health issues and that he did not listen to what I had been telling him for years, beside myself trying to convince him that his rationalizations weren't true and needed rehab. And probably initially we would have fought over him getting medical attention. I was able to thank him for giving me some peace that came with distance between us.
Glad you found us. Sounds like you have taken some HUGE steps to make your life better.