I'm sorry you feel like you have to do battle to do the right thing every day. Yes, recovery does take daily maintenance,I believe. I'm not an AA person, but I work at my recovery every day. However, for me, it's a labor of love and I can't imagine living any other way.
I can tell you what works for me and that's keeping balance in my life. Recovery is always incorporated, but I do things I enjoy every day. I walk a lot, which I love so much. I read a lot and enjoy quiet time with a book. I spend time with family and people I love.
You say you're not happy just not using, so what would make you happy. Look within, and figure out where you want to be, what do you want to do with your life. Get involved in things that you enjoy - take a course, volunteer, pick up a sport, whatever makes you feel happy.