It is great to see you back here, gneiss, I only wish it were under better circumstances, but you are most welcome all the same.
Fantasies of suicide are big warning signs and the fact you had one is most certainly disturbing. I am happy to hear that you are being strong and proactive, engaging your Dr. quickly. You know that there are trained people who you can talk to, I am sure you do, at any time of day or night.
I take anti D medications too, and it may take a while to find the right mix and dose for you, so stick with it. A therapist or social worker to talk with on a regular basis is an excellent idea too.
I hope your rough patch smooths out soon, gneiss, and in the meanwhile, please rely on SR for the support you provided to others in the past. Best to you.