Originally Posted by
Learn2Live 
I am an ACoA and as a child, I had a recurring nightmare where I was abandoned by my entire family TWICE. Same dream, over and over and over. It is so vividly etched in my memory I can recall it perfectly, and I am in my mid-40s. I very likely could cause myself to actually have this dream in my sleep again, even now, believe it or not.
I had the dream that my parents turned into monsters. Every night.
My alcoholic mother called me tonight, I hadn't said anything to her, my sister sent her and her husband (that she cheated on my Father with) an email. Explaining that I was leaving AH. I was trying to explain to an alcoholic what living with an alcoholic was. And how devastating cheating was. She made the usual noises about, wow, yeah, bad, while slurring her words. It was wasted breathe. I am looking for something an alcoholic can't give.