When I first started going down this road with my AW I cried a lot. I felt that this was all my fault and was a failure not being able to fix her problem. Now I never cry at the situation at home. I try to, but I am becoming very indifferent to her situation. But I will cry if I hear a certain song, or seeing someone helping another out of pure concern for that person. I grieve for the past life that I had with my wife, but I dont cry anymore. In one of my posts about looking inward, beautiful garden gave me a reply that made me start to bawl. I had to go into the bathroom to compose myself. Get some strange looks when a 6'6" man is blubbering like a baby.