Thank You all for your comments. Some of them were insightful and helped me think things through. I find that my perception of "God" has changed a great deal from my Catholic school days. My view seemed somewhat limited by the traditions and dogma. I see and feel God very differently now because of Al Anon. The God of my understanding is a loving God. I have had a great deal of love expressed to me and I am meant to share that love with others. Keeping my H in the marriage after he expresses his desire to end our contract would be cruel. It would fill me with anxiety, fear, anger as I tried to coerce and manipulate him. Releasing him from the contract is the loving thing to do. He was able to ask respectfully and not out of anger. I was able to hear it without feeling anger and bitterness. Divorcing him would be the loving thing to do for ME. I rather be healthy without him than dysfunctional with him. My God wants me to be healthy.