PS. I feel broken. I feel trapped. I feel like I am doing everything right and then some to keep myself safe and protected from him and nothing I do makes it better. In fact the stronger I am, the more distance I put the WORSE he is.
I am TERRIFIED I am going to be the mom on the news sobbing that my ex has killed himself and our kids... His completely crazy and I don't know what more to do.
I have a call into my lawyer and can't miss work tomorrow obviously (new job) but I think it's time to figure out a new plan.
I am not strong enough for this anymore.