Been reading about AVRT
I have not been going to meetings lately, but also don't want to start drinking again. I just want to get on with my life sober.
When reading on-line about AVRT and the beast...without knowing it this is similar to the way I overcame anorexia and bulimia. I always thought of my ED as a separate entity of my brain out to get me. It thought differently than I, it wanted different things than I, and it wanted to starve me to death or purge me into insanity. Everyday I fought against my ED beast and did not allow it to make my decisions. That was 16 years ago.
Recovery for my ED was not a lifelong process (going to daily mtg, calling people to talk about it...) I overcame it an got on with life. This is how I want my addiction recovery to go. I'm 111 days clean and sober. It's time to move on with life. I don't want to talk about recovery every day and think about recovery every day. I just want to live.