Originally Posted by
mv6348 
ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!
Letting go is extremely hard because you care and because you love. Duh! We are humans!
With time (and lots of patience) and support, everything heals.
Trust me, this is VERY hard. I haven't spoken to him for almost a week. The longest we have ever been. I go back and forth on many things, but bottom line, I can't do anything for him. He has to.
I just began this grieving process...This is just the beginning... How long was it for you?
We have had NC for about a month now. Our breakup culminated in a HUGE fight where he was horrible to me and flew into a rage. After that I was so depressed and anxious I broke up with him over e-mail citing his lunatic drinking and the mood swings, but he couldn't resist the urge to stick the knife in one last final time. He wrote me a letter saying HE was leaving ME - along with a list of my character flaws!
In the past he always came groveling back asking for forgiveness, but so far I have been spared the theatrics. I think even he must realize I am totally done with it. *sigh*