Hi Lara,
Your boyfriend or ex boyfriend (H), not sure - I see confusion here on SR as H is short for husband!
Yes he is human but it is his path and he really does not seem to care to much about endangering others - you have said he quite happily takes risk with others lives, including yours. Your choice Lara and I hope you make the right one for you and your son's sake. Where do you stand with him now? Are you still trying to "rescue"him?? I pick up that you are still in the "other"place - still batteling your internal fight... prayers are with you and all others infected and hurt by H's behaviour, including him. YOU concentrate on YOU and YOU heal... do not abandon your resolve to heal and get YOUR life sorted and on track and normal... too much mental space is being taken up (understand it) and you need to get a breather and refocus... love to you across the pond!