Today i had an AV attack RE a dinner i have to go to on Wednesday night
I told the person I won't be drinking and they were like you have to drink, i wont drink alone
The AV started going off about how you can't embarras this person or make it awkward,, just drink and then start again the next day etc etc
For a while I felt scared and uncomfortable then I remembered some things i'd read earlier on this thread about how any choice to drink is not a failure to abstain but succeeding to drink because I am the ultimate authority
The Beast can't force me to drink anymore than a lampost can insist I crash into it (all things i've read on here) I know the lampost analogy doesnt quite work because it doesnt come with a warped survival drive insisting I drive into it but the premise is the same
My beast is impotent, unable to move or make me do anything