Originally Posted by
lizatola 
and I know you guys must be terribly frustrated with me.
NEVER worry about this, we are all responsible for our own feelings, joy/anger/frustration/whatever. IF any of us are frustrate that is due to our own shortcomings and is nothing to do with you. please keep posting.
my best strides in finding joy in my life, came as a result of getting therapy for myself - I went to tackle my social anxiety, but ended up talking through many other things.
I have never been more content or happy than I am right now, evr in my whole life, and I heartily wish that for you.