Originally Posted by
coffeeclouds 
My opinion is that porn in a house with kids is a problem.
I also wished my AH would die. He has health problems that drinking should have killed him. Then he didn't die.
I am not sure that I want to work on the relationship anymore. Pretty wrung out after so many years.
I felt so bad I had those thoughts, I felt like I should be praying for his everlasting soul instead of wishing him physical harm. But just thought that if he would just disappear I wouldn't have to worry for my kids safety, wouldn't have to put up with his nightmare behavior, etc. And his health is so bad. I can't believe his body still functions with what he has done to it.
I understand that wrung out feeling. I often said that I had my account withdrawn from over and over and over again for 18 years, with no deposits, ever. You can't give anymore when your tank is empty!