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Old 07-31-2012, 08:20 PM
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lesliej
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maybe it's the imperfection of being human...
and having a brush with your own vulnerability that is necessary for growth.

maybe it's knowing that using your (ex?)spouse for "conjugal rights" in order to release some endorphins and soothe your grief while gaining finances from him...
well, maybe it's just a moment of weakness, and you dodged a bullet!

discovering this is part of "knowing yourself" which is a HUGE part of recovery
bringing it here to put it out in the open, instead of hiding it or repressing it in shame is another part of the process
and holding yourself accountable to the community here by sharing and reaching out is a major recovery move.

now you get the opportunity to imagine the after affects if he HAD come over, and use this insight and self wisdom to process some more!

it's all good...admitting where and how you feel "sick" and asking for help is HUGE!!!
congratulations! and HUGS!!
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