Oh, I can so feel your pain, Hope...I am holding you in my heart. It is a pain worse than childbirth to not let them in the door at such a fragile time. I'm still recovering from the afterpains!
The sighting yesterday of my AD's abusive XABF has haunted us all day. Still, I grieve for him, and remember how I tried to accept and include him in our family, ignorant of the heroin use. These ghost children are loved by someone, and all I can do when I see one is send an invisible hug and be on my way.
You and your sons are in my prayers.
I am smiling at the Posse of Mommas and thinking about the collective power we have that this sometimes-sorry-old-world sure could use. We have a corner on it right here, though, and thank goodness we can help each other through it all.
Amy