I liked the title of your post....fading echoes. Yes...that is exactly what they are. Two steps forward, one step back. I keep thinking that I've moved forward and then my vulnerability is triggered.
I left my husband 14 months ago and definitely understand how you feel. I've realized that I am just too vulnerable to "date" right now. I'm finding that companionship can come in many forms and for now I'm seeking it in friends. I've realized that I could handle dating if it all goes well but not if it doesn't. Just too big of a risk for me right now.
I'm tired of feeling lonely and lost. But I also realize that when I choose to make a major life change that there are going to be some rough waves until I truly get out to sea.
It's amazing how they can pop up in the strangest places and strangest times to remind us that we still have areas to work on as we move towards a healthier place.
I'm glad that you posted this and I agree - it helps to process it and get it out there....