Thanks everyone...for your responses. I am still angry but I am going to try to work on it. Expectations? I guess I am angry because I expected that if we both put in the work when he was 9 months sober...going to those outpatient groups, family night, significant other night, meetings, therapy, I believed naively that if we did all the right things, we would get the right results. He was sober for 9 months and then it got "too hard" and he just walks away with no thought to me or our family. I expected results if we put in the work. I expected him to care about his wife and children. I expected him to treat me with respect and try to appreciate a wife that hung in there all this time and supported him. Needless to say, none of my expectations were met and so yes, I am very angry. I wish I would have walked away long ago. Not just angry at him, angry at myself too for believing in someone who was such an awful human being and abused me for so long.