Sweet, trust me. I know how you feel. Belive me. I do feel the same way somtimes. I have noticed it comes a goes. I do belive we have every right to be angry. It's unbelievable the **** they put us and our children through. It's hard to let go and let god sometimes. All i will say is your responsible for the effort ,not the outcome. Meaning, do for yourself and f everyone else. We cannot take back what they did. But we can take "us" back. Go to meetings,gym, anything to make yourself feel better. Be angry. Then be happy of what you have and will get...