Hi Sweet
I think anger is going to be the thing I struggle with most for a very long time. I have an incredible amount of anger in me, and while I've learned to handle it most of the time, it's definitely still there.
A few years ago, I had one of those calendars where there's a different message every day. I was going through a particularly bad few days with AH and was a raging, infuriated, out of control lunatic. On this date the message read
For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness
I tore the page off the calendar and have kept it with me ever since. It is easier said than done not to be angry when we are angry, but I use this almost as a mantra. It doesn't always work, but sometimes it does.
Hope you can eventually work through some of your anger. Don't fight it, let it come, but try to find ways of not dwelling on it either (wish I knew how to do this lol)!!
Adventure