I applied for both of those positions that have opened up where I work that have day hours, so I am kind of proud to have accomplished this, simple as it seems. They are only open to internal applicants; one is in periodicals/microfilm/on-line databases, the other is my current department, but would deal more with course reserves, in digital format. (College library, here) I'll have to see what happens. A third position looks likely to open...so many people have left. At least this way, I could take classes, which would be wonderful. I want to go to grad school, but the classes are always when I work, in the afternoons and evening so 'most people' have an open schedule. The good thing is I get 6 free credits a semester as a benefit, tuition remission. So I'm hoping to be able to go back part time if this pans out, for a masters in creative writing, and then, the minimum required for a teaching certificate.
Ideally, I want something close to where I live, where I do not need a car. I've really come to be frustrated by and afraid of driving, it causes me a lot of anxiety. I have bad vision, and need a cornea transplant in my right eye, which is just a blur, so driving is a scary thing...if it rains at night, it's not easy. Plus, I am just tired of driving, and cars, and how expensive they are...the insurance, gas, repairs...it eats up even more money than drinking! I have 0 points on my record, but just the basic, non-comprehensive insurance is $170 a month in the city, and that's after shopping around to about 6 places. And no, Geico was not cheaper...it was about $50 more!
On that note, it is true, stopping drinking is the first step. Though as I try and build motivation, it helps me to look at what I will be able to do, as it gives me strength. So did not drink since the night before that gloomy post, and am feeling OK. Had acupuncture today, for TMJ, feel more relaxed.
Thanks everyone for reading this,
H. Pup