Anvilhead told me some things awhile ago I didn't want to hear.
Pissed me off,to tell the truth.
>>>>I love him the way Christ loves him - which is unconditionally<<<<<
THAT is what kept me 'hooked' in my codependency/addiction.I would be
the one that SAVED her,the one that never gave up on her.Why could I not
see it? Because I was too close to the situation---and I didn't WANT to see.
I'm not Christ.
My friendship IS conditional.Conditional on people that do not use,abuse,lie to,hurt,manipulate,scam,and disrespect me.Everyone can manufacture 'reasons' why they do what they do,be it beating up their spouse or writing a bad check.And if they can find an endless supply of suckers (like me!) who go on cashing their worthless bank drafts.........WHY WOULDN'T THEY? "Conning" is easier than working.If anyone insists there "is no free lunch" in this world-----I really must beg to differ!
If it's any consolation---I (under my breath)called Anvil much worse than angry or bitter.The illusion is that ALL people have a heart of gold (deep down).It's only the addiction that clouds it.
I do so wish that were true.
It's not.
Thanks again,Anvil......for the kick in the pants when I needed it most!
yellow=addict,brown=codie(s)
