I feel you. I really do.
The fire of anger over some drama is sometimes what we need to get us to make a change.
The only advice I would have is to recognize this is going to hurt and your default will be to go back, but work on allowing the sadness and loneliness and fear and longing to arise and just BE with those feelings without taking action. You can get through this. Those feelings are survivable.
I am sorry for your hurt.
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