I got intoxicated by the environment before I got intoxicated with anything else.
If that makes sense.
I know what I have to do..... More importantly what I want to do.....
But ... Damn... Damn damn....
I hate knowing and still being lead around by it.
This is a complex thing.... Many sides... Many facets.
I said once here that we all have many facets.... We must turn in odd ways to make them shine brilliantly.... Or not.
The pain is the hard part today.