Hi Bobcat Thank you so much for your reply and time!! What you say in your last post gave me goosebumps - it is as though you know me already? Your experiences almost mirror mine to a lesser or greater degree!!!! It is as though you are in the room with me?? I will reply in full to your post a little later on today - as hectic with work. Thank you so much for your experience - I can see there is so much pain still...God it is frightening the how destructive addiction (alcohol and drugs) is - it destroys lives, families and future generations (if WE as the NON ADDICTS don't stop it!!!!!!)