When I was drinking, I did not say things like that. Never. I did pick fights with my husband, and said bad things, but never to that level, thank God!
But did I mean the stuff I did say? NO. Frankly, most of the crazy things I did and said were distortions caused the fact that I was poisoning my brain. I was not thinking straight at all, and the crap that came out of my mouth had nothing to do with reality.
I sometimes hear people claim that "in vino veritas"...in wine there is truth. Maybe that is the case for a nonalcoholic who has had a bit too much and gets loose lips as a result. But for me, the things I said were the ravings of a lunatic, not expressions of truth.