innerchild,
i don't think anyone is trying to bash you here.
i understand where you are coming from, and nearly got myself into trouble this week by isolating, too.
i think that everyone is just trying to remind you to get back to what you said was working for you
i hope no one is afraid to post on here....we are all here to support each other.
sometimes the directness that comes with that can sting a bit, but it is all meant well.
meanwhile, dust yourself off. you can do this, and we are all here for you.