Your actions speak, too, Grizz.
Don't forget: Alcoholics hear what we do, not what we say.
July 3: A date with drunkenness and abuse.
July 4: Alcoholic sorries and she gets another date.
She will listen only to what you do, Grizz. Your actions.
Keep recovering and one day you will be able to step off the rollercoaster. In the meantime, we are glad you are here. You are in recovery and things are bound to eventually change for the better.