Thank you both so very much I have seen both of you respond to others here and I so admire and respect you both! crazybabie I am going to just respond thank you and I am going to reach out and find a meeting this week. kindeyes thank you as well for pointing that out as much as I try and work on not having chaos in my life it's so easy to slip back into and get all wrapped up in it and not focus on me I do needed to hear that ( I say all the time I am the only one that can control my feelings my reactions and make my own choices!) I need to STOP SAYING IT AND DOING IT!