WOW.....yeah i would probably being doing the same thing! WOW is all I can say. As my grandmother always told me "Keep your Wits About you!" lol I remind myself of that often. By wits I mean I hope you can tune out the infuriating things that hurt emotionally, yet I can imagine how flooring that must be for you, knowing what mutual friends are saying and such! I hear ya. Stay strong and know when to turn away from the emails that don't pertain to the business.....soon I think it will get easier to ignore those.....