for not learning about AVRT sooner
i would have saved myself a great deal of misfortune. this recognition technique makes such perfect sense to me. i had nearly a year of sobriety before i cracked. the thing is for those "awesomest" months of my life i had been practicing AVRT in my own way, i kept separating the desire to drink as something irrational when i knew clearly in my head that drinking will be the end of me (it almost happened that way).
i've got a lot to learn and understand still, but i feel so much more confident now that someone out there was able to put these thoughts and conflicted feelings into a clear perspective of rational me vs AV (the beast).
over the last two days i've read as much as i could on the subject and will continue to read, learn and share my views.
thank you, my SR friends, for opening my eyes to this method. you have another believer here.
looking forward to learning more and connecting to other's that have recovered through AVRT.