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And I should be celebrating. No contact was what I had to do for my own sanity and so that I can finally reclaim my life. Why am I having trouble moving on?
i feel you, i am trying my bestest with the NC with my xabf, last saturday morning he called me at 4am, either his high, his drunk or his insomia is acting up. i smiled when i saw the missed call when i woke up at 7 but sad at the same time realizing that i can no longer call him back.
today is my birthday, it would be nice if he calls me even if i dont pick up. knowing that he remembers is consolation enough.
hang in there, and ((((((hugs))))))) to you.