Originally Posted by
cris808 
Maybe I'm naive. I try to tell my AH that I know he's still using and that he's not doing what he needs to be doing. He's not going to the doctor or meetings (he's on suboxone). Loaded on father's day and ruined that. Loaded again tonight. Calling out from work because his back hurts. REALLY? Why do I feel the need for him to fess up so I can do something. I know I need to leave him but am scared. Y? I supported my family myself with him as an addict for almost 10 years. Obviously I can take care of just myself and daughter. What can I do to help or to have the strength to do what I need to do?
Once you decide that enough is enough, you will put one foot in front of the other and keep doing that until what needs to be done is done. It is not easy or without doubt and regret, it doesn't always feel happy or without worry but it can feel liberating. Not much else to say, I'm in the process now with a perpetual lump in my throat.