XA's blackouts were usually about the same crap too.
Funny thing, all the ranting, raving, anger, and craziness he was going on about, were things he did and caused to himself. Lost his career, wrecked his truck. lost his license, medical bills ( from repeated falling down and having to go get stitches) etc.......
There were so many times i just wanted to scream "If you look in the mirror, you will see where the problem lies".
Towards the end, I would just listen to my ipod, (loud) smile and nod and do my thing, he would wear himself out, and pass out........ good times, .......not.
Anyway, I view it as a self loathing, and trying to make the rest of the people in their world feel like crap too.