Originally Posted by
Florence 
I know too much now to go back to the way things were, but I have no idea what the hell I'm doing.
Truer words were never spoken! I know just how you feel! You desribe it so well!
:ghug3
You've got to be extra loving and kind and patient with yourself right now. Baby yourself. Do whatever it takes. Try and remember what you used to do that brought you joy before life with an alcoholic sucked it away. For me, working out, music, gardening, long walks, and lots of al anon meetings have been the ticket. Do what you need to do and keep going...I think you sound incredibly strong and headed in a great direction of growth and improvement...
Hugs...
Mary