Originally Posted by
IAmAbstinent 
Also I am a 'failure' in avrt terms am I not for breaking the big plan?
No, you are not a failure of any sort. You simply haven't fully understood the true meaning of the Big Plan, and have yet to make it. I know you can do it.
1 - The Big Plan cannot be broken.
2 - The Big Plan can only be done once in a lifetime for any given substance.
3 - The Big Plan is a very deliberate decision and YOU WILL FEEL the impact of its permanence and KNOW that you will ALWAYS recall the Big Plan whenever the desire to use again comes to mind - that being your Addictive Voice.
4 - You will have some very uniquely human positive feelings upon making a Big Plan called the ACE - Abstinence Commitment Effect.
For me, number 4 was a grand awareness of absolute domination over the habit I was terminating - the Beast. An incomparable reverberation of knowing time and timelessness. Knowing I will die having lived happily without that stuff ever getting inside of me again is such a solid idea that it gives me confidence to go out and do all kinds of other things without worrying about having to choose to use, or not, in the future.