Welcome Risingstar,
I drank myself right to rock-bottom. Lost my career, my gf, my car, my house, my drivers license....etc. I sobered up last year and I am back on the right track. I am still broke and have none of the material things I used to, but I am happier now than I have been in 15 years. Try life without the booze and things will get better. I promise you.