Liz Re: your last post- you are further ahead than you think. I was nodding at everything I read. It's easier for me to see the facts because I am not emotionally involved.
You probably know this already, but you 'are' alone already. You already do most everything by yourself in the house and you home school. It might take some time for you to get used to your new feelings and emotions, but they are now your new belief.
Glad to know you are going to FL. Being out from under the reminders of what your life really is may serve to give you an extra push. I wish you well. It takes time to get to a next step. It's a disappointment and it is frightening, but you will handle it.