sweetteewalls
Time takes time...one therapy appointment and one al-anon meeting aren't going to cure you of the grief you are feeling.
When my exH moved out and started divorce proceedings, I could barely move, it hurt sooo badly. It was the worst emotional pain I'd been through--bar none. I, too, went to therapy, I journaled, I walked and walked outside every evening. At first, I too, did not think this overwhelming pain would ever go away. It seemed too big. Like it extended for miles and miles around me coloring everything and everyone I encountered.
But I kept walking, kept journaling, kept going to therapy....and eventually, the pain started to lift. I found I could actually start enjoying the things I used to enjoy and laugh with my friends! It took a few months to get to that point, but it happened!!
We all grieve at our own pace. Keep doing what you are doing, sweetteewalls, and the cloud will pass for you, too!!