Sweet, what's really helped me this past week is focusing on the things that the kids and I weren't able to do when he was here. We went out for pizza to a place we couldn't go to before because he didn't like it. Enjoying the quiet we never had before. It helps, especially when I realized how draining it is to be in a relationship with an alcoholic. When all else fails, I keep telling myself that if he is the type of person that will abandon his family, then he doesn't deserve us anyway.