i am in so much pain...
My separated AH was with the girl he was with during his addiction. I was laying here at home taking care of our 4 year old daughter, our bills, our home....and he is relapsing and being with that interloper. All this time he would act like I am crazy. He would tell me its all in my imagination. I knew he was pulling away and obviously because he was running toward this young girl who lives at home with her parents. I lost it. How is I worked so hard and went through this intensive outpatient program and we spent so much time and energy and this is how I end up? I have no family. My friends were over him long ago...I sit here in the dark, alone. I am trying so hard but the pain is so overwhelming. He is such a liar, canniving, selfish...I know its not right to hate but I hate him. He is not a man at all for walking out on our family...I don't deserve this. I know I will get through this but the pain is just too much.