The only thing is, I don't act like this when I am not doing this drug. Every time I do it, it makes me feel these emotions that cause me to do these emberassing acts. Sometimes I don't do what I did recently, but sometimes I do. It has happened before. Now that I did this in front of people I know, people are gonna probably talk about it. I hope they don't but I know they probably will.
Simply the drug turns me into someone I am not, and makes me do things I wouldn't do if I was not under the influece. I am ashamed of it.