Oh dear, you're not alone. I have a 4 year old and a 10 month old and I'm taking care of them by myself. I'm staying with my parents and my mother has her own problems and isn't much help. I resent my husband for leaving me on my own to handle everything. I'm fine during the day, but at night is the worst. Last week, I drank two nights in a row and then decided that numbing the pain isn't the right path to take. Good for you for resisting it. We'll be okay, and our children will be proud of us for being strong.